On 22/12/11 I got my PMR result, it was nerve wrecking when I had to wait till the results were finally announced but my mom was way ahead of the school and told me my result. She said she was disappointed at first, I expected my result to be quite bad but it turned out to be quite decent after all. 7As my mom said, I was surprised. I was bubbling with joy but I was also disappointed, I knew I could have done better. I knew from the beginning I wasn't working hard enough, I was fooling around when I could have been studying.
I can't lie, I really felt like a failure at that moment, it was just a matter of that one subject and I could have gotten straight As. It seems like the whole world was crashing down around me and I couldn't do anything to stop it. I could see the disappointment in my mom's eyes, I felt like breaking down in tears but I kept strong I didn't want anyone else to see me crying, of course it would be so humiliating. It definitely felt like I was 12 again, I failed to please my parents with my UPSR result. After all that my parents were still proud of me, they said that I did my best and accepted my result as it is.
At least some of my friends got straight As for their results, I'm really proud of them. You guys are my homies and I really appreciate you guys for being there for me when I need you the most. Eventhough, I act like a total asshole you guys still stick by me, thanks. That's the end of me rumbling about my result. Now let's talk about next year, what is there to talk about anyways? Should I check this year's resolutions and see if I achieved all of them?
- Try to be a better person for everyone and most importantly for myself.(✓)
- Stick to one relationship only.(✓)
- Love him with all my heart and never ever even try to leave him even for once.(✗)
- Be a better daughter for both of my parents. (✓)
- Get 8As for PMR and make my parents proud.(✗)
- Achieve something good.(✗)
- Try to finish all the homework given by the teachers.(✗)
- Improve myself in many things.(✓)
- Try to make everyone around me happy.(✗)
- Stay positive throughout the whole year.(✗)
That totally backfired, I didn't even achieve half of it, there's always next year though. Start fresh and hope for the best, that's all I have to say. I don't want to make promises to myself that I can't keep, look above for an example. 2011 is a crappy year but I know it shall be missed because this is the last year I'll be with the Galaxians. I miss you guys.